Ok well this post is not to my husband because I do not have one... yet lol
I've decided to write a letter to my husband. Whoever he is, wherever he is.
If I write to him (or pretend I'm writing to him and then give it to him when I'm married, or let him accidentally find it lol) anyway I will feel like he's in my life already and that I'm with him and it will stop me thinking about marriage so much that way and help me focus on what is happening at present in my life, that is important for my future.
I know whoever he is, he is waiting just like I am. And we will be looking for each other and by Allah's will we will find each other. We made a promise to each other before we were born, when we met in heaven. We promised we would be together. I hope to stay single and free of men until I meet him, otherwise I feel I would be cheating him and betraying him. I regret previous relationships and I hope he will not be disheartened and love me never the less.
Because I changed for Allah, and Allah still loves me.
And I will love my husband for the sake of Allah.
He may not be untouched, but I will remain untouched for him.
He may not remember the promise, but I will remind him.
He may not remember me, but I will keep remembering him.